the best person i could be.

i want you on my team

i want you to feel what i feel

i want you to understand

how it is

to be on this side

on my side

and yet

we are disconnected wires

crossing and fusing at odd ends

we are half lit up Christmas trees.

faulted and misused,

we are wasted and misguided.

and i cannot promise what i cannot keep

but i can attempt to carry this

i dont want you to see me as more then i am

for i dont want to disappoint

but this is no disclaimer

this is just a warning

what i want

i fear

does not exist

for us

but if it could

i would then probably be

the best person i could be.